16 Things I Learned in 2016

  1. Don’t put up with crappy people. You’ll end up caring way more about them then they do you.
  2. It’s okay to take care of yourself. Taking care of yourself doesn’t make you selfish.
  3. I learned what makes a real friend.
  4. A real friend is someone’s who there for you during a tough time (such as losing three family members in less than a month). They aren’t selfish. They realize you need a shoulder to cry on and you would do the same for them.
  5. Try to go after what you are interested in. Hearing “no” isn’t as bad as you think.
  6. I have insecurities that I didn’t know I had before. Like how I look on camera.
  7. If you’re roommates are crappy it’s fine. You pay rent. You deserve to enjoy living in your place as much as they do.
  8. Sometimes bad people (this includes family and long time friends) won’t get better. A lot of times they don’t want to get better. Sometimes they think they are perfectly fine. Don’t stress yourself out trying to help them get better if they don’t want to. You don’t have to put up with it.
  9. I like fashion a lot but I’m also broke so….yay!
  10. How to save money in my own way.
  11. Just because someone’s life looks good on Instagram or Facebook doesn’t mean yours sucks.
  12. Not all careers are quick financial fixes and if this is what you want to do, you gotta accept that fact and do what you gotta do to get where you want to be.
  13. Just because you’re not graduating “on time” doesn’t mean you’re a failure.
  14. Accept healthy criticism. Healthy criticism helps you grow and gives you a stronger back bone.
  15. College isn’t for everybody but I realized that too late so I need to finish where I started.
  16. New Years resolutions work better if I don’t tell anyone about them.

Until next time,

Tiara “KikyoHatake” Giles

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Bulldog Bash: Flo Rida Cancelled

What’s up everybody? When was the last time I posted on here? Oh yeah. Before midterm season. Well I am posting here now. How have you been?

Friday (October 7th) was Bulldog Bash. This is one of the few big events that we have at this school. Matter-of-fact one of the few things that happen in this city. You here the phrase “There ain’t nothing to do in Starkville” a lot. I have to admit it’s true. Aside from football games, a few concerts (rare if it’s a big name), and a couple of events there is nothing to do.

Bulldog Bash is our biggest event during football season that’s held in our Historic Cotton District (basically an old school downtown. Almost every big event is held there). There is a huge contest with one local band (that wins a contest), a small musician, and a big named musician. Flo Rida was supposed to be our big name and just before 10pm the host notified us that he was a no show. People griped and posted #fuckflorida on social media.

The question however is, did we have fun? I don’t know about everyone else but my friends and I did. Of course we were disappointed about the cancellation but it was still a good night regardless.

This was the first time that I really enjoyed Bulldog Bash. Not because of who played at the event but because of the people surrounding me. I was surrounded by people with good vibes this time. No one intentionally got black out drunk, no one intentionally complained about things not going their way, no one tried to fight. It was all good.

Until next time,

Tiara “Kiyohatake” Giles

Real Friends Pt. 2 -Short Story-

Disclaimer: this is fiction and this is open to healthy critiquing (that means no saying “you suck!” if you think I suck, logically and intelligently tell me what I should improve upon). Also, this is going to have some girly bits for the sake of finding a “real friendship”. Thanks for reading!

After the concert Jamie went to hunt down Tyler, Marie went to talk to some of her guy friends and Danni and I went to the bathroom.

“Is the guy Jamie interested in the dude you ran into,” she asked while washing her hands.

“Yeah. Why,” I pretended to search for lip gloss in my purse.

“Because I saw the way he looked at you. I definitely think he’s interested,” she said calmly. I blushed slightly.

“Really,” I said my eyes wide.

“Yeah but I don’t think you should pursue anything with him,” she shrugged.

“Why not,” I placed a hand on my hip.

“Because Jamie is obviously really interested in him and she’s had such bad luck with guys lately,” she shrugged.

“What are you trying to say,” this time I folded my arms.

“I’m trying to say that you should let Jamie have some fun with a guy that seems really nice for once,” she pleaded. “Come on. She cries a lot because her love life sucks and every time you get into a relationship it’s always with a good guy and so unfair to watch. I get it that sometimes those guys hurt you but they’re still better than what Jamie gets.”

“Haven’t we done enough sacrificing for her already,” I exclaimed. “Marie is so insecure about every guy she meets because they might end up or have already slept with Jamie. That’s not how things should be and that’s not fair.”

“Hey,” she raised her hand. “You don’t have to get defensive. I was just trying to be a good friend unlike you.”

“You three are so stressful! Back off,” I swiftly turned and retreated from the bathroom. My head ached with blind fury. I was so blind that I hit something hard.

“Running into me again,” an amused manly voice said.

“Hi Tyler,” I smiled rubbing my head. “Sorry. I wasn’t paying attention.”

“No. No, it’s fine,” he laughed. “So my friends and I are going to skip out on that after party but nobody else knows yet.”

“Oh really,” I see his friends, who are also his bandmates and roommates, watching us from a distance.

“Yeah,” he said. “You wanna come?”

He looked expectant and I looked between him and his friends. Did I want to come? I could suddenly heard Danni’s voice in my head again. You should let Jamie have some fun with a guy that seems really nice for once.

“Yeah,” I smiled.

“Cool.”


We ended up at this nice Mexican restaurant chatting about random stuff and sometimes serious things.

“So what are you going to do after college Gia. It’s like your last year right,” Tyler’s friend Bethany asked.

“Ugh, don’t remind me,” I covered my face with my hand and groaned. “I have no idea.”

“You don’t know what you wanna do,” said the guy sitting across from me with wide eyes.

“Sven leave her alone,” his friend Taylor commanded.

“What? She seems so together man,” Sven complained. I felt a bit worse.

“See! Now you’ve got her all upset,” Taylor exclaimed smacking Sven on the shoulder.

“Ow! I’m sorry,” he pouted. She smacked him again.

“What are you interested in at least,” Tyler asked.

“A lot of things,” I answered. “but mainly creative things. I want to create really inspiring and relatable things.”

“Well that explains the film major,” Bethany said. “It’s totally perfect.”

“Yeah,” I sighed. “But it doesn’t do me much good.”

Everyone gave me the same quizzical look.

“I mean most of my friends know exactly what they’re going to do and how they’re going to do it and they all have jobs lined up and I’m just over here like ‘I create stuff!’,” I explained suddenly feeling more vulnerable as their faces softened.

“Do your friends know how you feel,” Bethany asked kindly.

“Not really,” I shrugged. “I mean I’ve talked to them but they don’t really recognize me for my skill and stuff as if our goals aren’t equally as important sometimes.”

“Do they at least encourage you or like look at your stuff,” Sven asked. I shook my head and Taylor frowned.

“That’s terrible! Why are you friends with them?” Taylor exclaimed, causing the restaurant to go silent.

“I mean they aren’t bad people. Danni can be really supportive at times whenever she isn’t around Jamie and Marie is really cool whenever Jamie isn’t around,” I said, the words water falling out of my mouth.

“Wait. Jamie?” Sven’s eyes widened. “Jamie Vasquez?”

I nodded.

“Nah man,” Sven shook his head. “That girl is not cool. Her and Taylor used to be besties back in the day and she came out so mean when she got to college. How in the eff did you end up with her?”

I shrugged. I tended to meet terrible people and I felt as if the good people just left me very quickly. It was as if they weren’t interested in being my friend. These people were obviously good people too and it was nice to be in this moment right now.

“Hey,” Tyler whispered. “I know they’re your best friends and you wouldn’t let anyone hurt them but do they do the same for you?”

“Exactly,” Bethany exclaimed. “If they don’t treat you like they care about you then what kind of friendship is that?”

I wondered the same thing sometimes. I put up with a lot of crap and made a ton of excuses for their actions.

Eventually, the conversation moved on to other things but my mind kept drifting back to that conversation. Did my friends really have my best interest at heart? I’ve never actually shown them any of my pieces. I mean they didn’t seem too interested in my stuff so I didn’t bother. Maybe if I showed them my stuff they’d have a reason to be supportive . . . something about that thought felt stupid.

“Hey, you ready to go,” I heard Tyler’s soft voice break my train of thought. I looked up to see all of his friends smiling at me and I nodded.


“So what happened to you last night,” Jamie asked as we sat at our usual lunch place. “You were like with us and then you went off on Danni and then you disappeared.”

“Did Danny tell you why I left,” I asked.

“No but I don’t care about that,” Jamie rolled her neck. “I want to know what you did last night.”

“I hung out with friends,” I shrugged. “No big deal.”

“No big deal!!!” She shrieked. “You were supposed to be hanging out with us!”

“What’s going on,” Marie said as she and Danny joined our table.

“This bitch was out with other people when she was supposed to be out with us,” Jamie genuinely seemed hurt by the fact that I left her last night.

“That’s where you went,” Danni asked, she seemed relieved. Jamie shot her a hurt look.

“So what’s the problem,” Marie asked very confused.

We were hanging out.” She complains. “We were having a girls’ night and she abandons us for her own little personal rendezvous time as if she doesn’t care about us anymore!”

Oh my gosh! Female! I was done. I had finally come to my breaking point.

“You would’ve left us for a BOY!!!” I yelled. “You would’ve left us if you got the chance to woo him like you wanted. You didn’t give a crap about us having a girls’ night! You just wanted us there for your benefit, to give you attention, so if your tail got rejected you had your ‘friends’ to fall back on.”

She opened her mouth to talk and I raised a hand.

“You. Are so. Selfish!” I waved my arms around. “Like oh my gosh! You threaten people when things don’t go your way. You scream for attention. You get mad when someone tells you the truth about ANYTHING relating to you and whether it’s negative or positive you just have to one up everybody.”

Then I addressed the other two.

“And I love you guys but jeez you either guilt-trip me or put up with so much crap that I don’t know how you don’t get nightmares at night.” I shook my head. “You don’t support me and you ostracize me but you demand so much of my dang time. It makes me want to scream!”

“Well if you don’t want us you can take your sorry life with you,” Jamie said looking away from me. “You know we cared about you! We were your real friends!”

“You’re pitiful,” I shook my head. I was finally ready to let go of terrible people even if they were my closest friends.

A car revved outside of the window and I saw Tyler and his friends waving at me through the window. I motioned to see if I could join them and they all nodded. Taylor jumped out of the front seat next to Tyler and hopped into the back seat. I smiled brightly.

“What’s going on,” Jamie looked between me and the car. “Is that Tyler?!”

“Yep,” I said and waltzed out of the building as she screamed.

I Hate Small Talk

Like I seriously hate small talk. I know small talk is necessary for the beginning stages of communication and that’s fine. However, if you have established in your mind that we are friends then why the small talk? Why are we still talking about senseless things like:

Me: *enters house* Hi.

Them: *sitting on couch; music playing* Hi

One of them: How was your day?

Me: It was good. Kind of long. My teacher won’t let us start on our project even though it’s due next week. I prefer to get stuff done early you know. Other than that it was good. How was yours?

One of them: Oh. It was good.

*awkward silence ensues*

AND YOU CALL ME YOUR FRIEND BUT YOU CAN’T TELL ME HOW YOUR DAY WAS? Seriously, how do people do it? How do some people just live their lives through nothing but small talk and call someone else their friend? I can’t do that. If I call you my friend it’s because we finally grew past small talk. We finally got to the point where we can honestly talk about how our day actually was. We can finally actually talk about our boyfriend instead of relating our boyfriends to cheese.

I don’t have time for small talk and I sure enough don’t have time to call everyone my friend. There are people you say hi to, acquaintances, friends, and best friends. I have seen people who call themselves besties live their lives through small talk. I don’t get it. It doesn’t make sense.

Why would you want to live life through small talk? I wouldn’t.

If I am going to say “We’re all friends here” and take spontaneous Walmart or food trips, I will seriously invest time and energy. I am serious about us being friends. No joke.

Until next time,

Tiara “KikyoHatake” Giles

My Last First Day of College

My last first week of college was short but eventful and also a little weird and stressful.

I bought my books in advanced because all of my teachers told me that we would need them in order to pass. Then I went to class and three out of five teachers said I didn’t need the books. Luckily they said this during the return period where I could get my money back but still. It has also been raining a lot lately but still extremely hot. Continue reading

Exploring Old Friendships

 

Frozen Image

unfinished piece from drawn in high school of an original image that was taken in middle school (i’m on the left)

I have to say that I have never seen the end of so many friendships before until now. Each end came with a learning experience though. All of these endings taught me so much about myself. Like how to sniff out toxic people. For example, say you have a bae and all yo closest homies are single. Of course, some of them aren’t going to like being single, but I mean they know you still the homie and they are comfortable in their own skin. Now the toxic single friend is the person who constantly either: Continue reading

Pokémon Go and Friendship

pokemon go and friendship

I have a tendency to download a cellphone game and get immediately addicted. It doesn’t matter what that game is or how complex the game is. I will still get addicted. Now this game addiction is definitely a phase. The longest time I’ve spent “binge gaming” was when the Simpsons Tapped Out came out. I downloaded it because a cute guy had the game and then continued playing the game for almost a year after I had forgotten about him. Continue reading